push through

So I did good over the weekend,  went to claim jumper Friday night and got grilled shrimp and a salad bar. Saturday morning we went to breakfast and I only had protein. Sunday I tried paleo chili, it was fantastic.  So I sit here and look at my life, where I've been,  what I've done,  my husband and my kids.  Do you ever just sit back and wonder will it always remain the same way? I lately have wondered it, will we always be happy, will we ever accomplish our goals? Somethings have happened and as I sit here I wonder where our paths are leading, I know that everyday is a new day and I don't know what the future holds but I will live it the best that I can.  In the midst of a day that started out great it turned bad pretty quick. I left and went to the gym and the good thing is I ran my fastest mile,  I lifted heavier weight and I got to think. I thought about the pain that others put on us, the pain we put onto others. What I want to do with myself and my self worth.  I have also realized that emotionally things can change very quickly. So I will go to bed with this, I am changing for me and only me, by doing this I will have greater strength,  a stronger outlook on life and my self esteem will be through the roof...